Im still here

I think I need to write a book about my life and raising 3 challenging kids. I have certain feelings about my kids and their challenges, school, doctors, therapists. How sometimes I feel like a failure. Im sure someone else has made a book. but I think it would be theraputic for me. I cant just say on a day that has been crazy and difficult that I hate my kids. cuz people get all crazy "HOW COULD YOU"  I didnt say I would kill my kids. that day I was sick of them and wanted to change the last 6 yrs of my life. I seen a movie recently that a lady from around here made about RAD kids. I seen some of the crazy stuff my kids do. but I still think if she had my story it would be more interesting.

On another note my puggies are doing great. There is a pug rescue that I like to support.

Ugh!

I wish I had a day to just lay in bed and not procrastinate what I have to do that day!!

first day of school

The oldest first day at middle school. It has been different driving them to 2 diff. schools

She's my kryptonite....

 And I'm not sure how to deal with it.

My oldest came back from 2 weeks at my sisters and then my 9yr old went. (I miss her like crazy)
So my oldest is back to her stupid tricks of pushing my buttons. When she was gone things were calm and everyone got along. there was like a weight of relief lifted and life was wonderful. Now she's back and the clouds roll in.

HOT HOT HOT

The past week has been sooo hot we have been stuck in the house just to keep cool. We did have a pool, not a real big pool but big enough for all of us to keep cool. but kids kept getting it dirty by going in and out and now they don't want to swim in it.
I have been busy keeping my Mom happy since my brother (who lived with her) was put in jail for being behind in child support. So keeping her from being lonely and crying all day, my kids have been going over and staying the night and watering her flowers. full time job!!!!!

The county fair is here not sure I want to take the kids, we usually wait for the State fair since we just live a couple of blocks we just walk.

Destiny has been gone for 2 weeks to my sisters farm, and I have to say its been a real quiet 2 weeks!!!

Well if we have anymore of the 100 temps Ill be back complaining about it!!!

Me Blah Blahing

This post my be all over and make no sense.  So the letters on my key board stick so if it looks like I forgot any letters it cuz I didn't proof read :)

 I have a full day of paying bills for my Mom and mine. Taking one kid out of school for counseling  another to an eye appointment and then counseling for Jim and I and girls softball. I am tired just thinking about it. While I did half of my stuff this morning, as I was driving it was so nice to see all the tulips blooming. It has been sooo cold and rainy here that a cool sunny day is rare. today is nice and sunny.. just beautiful but tomorrow will be back to rain and storms.

I have to say we have been De-cluttering our house, cleaning, taking apart rooms repainting not my Idea of a fun time but feels good to be clutter free.

There is somethings going on in my life that I will not share but we are having a rough time and we all are going to counseling to deal with kids and discipline and RAD. sometimes change is hard.

30 day blog challenge day 6 & 100th post :)

a picture that makes me happy-

                                                                         My puppies make me happy