Hope seems to be lost... feels like

Im lost..... I need to find myself. I've been the one who see's the brighter side.... So many things, I hate my job, hate my kids school,OT twice a week,counciling for all 3 kids. Did I say I hate my job, I dont hate what I do.. just where I work. My house is a mess, and everything feels out of control. I need someone to talk to other than my family. Or maybe a place to just post my thoughts so I dont keep them all bottled up. So here we go.