Happy New Year!!!

I hope every one has a Happy and safe New Year!!!

INSPIRED

Waking up this morning, I thought "Gosh morning already?" I was not looking forward to kids waking me. Two weeks off from school has been no fun around here with RAD kids. I love my kids don't get me wrong. But every day bickering can drive a person crazy. I think they are just getting at that age.
I read a post of another blogger with rad kids and her blog just made me feel good. It said "living on purpose" I have been in a funk lately and feeling sorry or sad or whatever you want to call it. I have not wanted to do much my mood at work sucks. Each day slides by and WHAT? Nothing same old stuff. SO instead I am pulling myself out of this Guck, I am going to use "living on purpose" as a motivation. We should always be greatful for the wonderful things that god has given us but some times we (I) get in a Guck(my word) and forget. Then something like that INSPIRES me.

Merry Christmas

Today was a day of just relaxing,my day off. I took the kids to see santa. The mall was crazy busy.

The girls Birth grandparents called and left a message asking to see them. And when I didn't return the call right away they stoped by. So I was kinda ticked about that. They can wait until after Christmas to see them. I have to work, So Jim will have to do the opening of gifts with out me. We usually have it on a diff. day so the kids think Santa came when we are both off. But it didn't work out that way this year.

I Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas!!!!

I am here

I have just been busy. I'm having a hard time dealing with my Dads death. Nothing has been going right and no one to talk to around here except hubby.

I have been sick. I have been working on Christmas frames for family. I didn't take a picture of the frames before so I took one of a diff. size frame.

Being sick and having a 4yr old asking me every 2 min. "can I have something to eat?" I didn't get much rest.

We finally got some snow and the kids are excited to make snowmen. I on the other hand will not be participating, tooo cold for me!!!

Not sure if I like the way the pictures loaded on here. I should spend some time messing around and learning all the quirks.

Memories of my DAD

As I look through my picture files I realize I didn't have alot of pictures of my Dad.

I started to break down and cry. My Dad was an awsome dad. He would be the neighbor hood bike fixer or scraped knee fixer. If you were a kid in my neighbor hood and had red die on a skinned knee, You had seen my Dad.

A friend I grew up with and I played out side all day. I don't remember watching tv. We would make mud pies and cakes. If we needed something to put them in My dad would be working in the garage and would scrounge around and find something for us to play with.

My Dad also would fix everybody's flat tire with out complaint. He had these old patches that you had to clamp on and light on fire. he hung it on a hook in the garage and we would watch with aww.

I guess I have held all this in for a while. I don't think it has really hit me. Ive been so busy with my own family and helping my Mom that I don't really have time for my self.

This blog I'm doing for me. So I can learn to take some time for my self.. head phone in all

My 2 sweethearts

I bought a new Camera, So I can post some new pictures!!!!!

I have this thing with E-bay. I just want to buy stuff. If I can't find something for me, I'm looking for the kids or the hubby,the dog... What ever.

I bought our pug Bilbo a new bed and threw his old one out because the old one was stinky. Now he wont sleep in the new one.

So I will try to post some new pictures later.

Brrrrr it's cold and I'm a wimp!!!!

Today our new couch came. I had to move a bounch of stuff so the guy's wouldn't knock stuff over. I did get some gifts wraped. Rachel and I had a little wrapping party before we had to pick up kids. I felt a little guilty taking Cowen to daycare but I wanted to get things done.

My Mission

I have been so busy lately. Last night I had a meeting with a group that are trying to start a Support group for adoptive and pre-adoptive families in our area. They are creating a web site to go to for information and I am a board memeber. We are still working out all the legal stuff. We have a lawyer that works as a guardian at litum for the foster care system and is an adoptive parent as a memeber, It's all confusing for me right now but I'm excited about being involved.

I also mentioned that I wanted to start a place where we can take donations of car seats, diapers, clothes, shoes That would be for our foster care parents when they get a child in the middle of the night or on the weekend ad they can call up and ask for what ever they need, Maybe on a loan(borrow) and return it when their done??? still need to work on that.

So thats what Ive been up to besides working and sick kids. The only one that has not got sick is ME.
I think I have all my Christmas shopping done. I think we went over board on the kids but thats ok. It is soooooo cold today I want to go back to bed for the rest of the day But I am cleaning out my bedroom and everything is now in my kitchen, So I guess I should get it picked up before I have to go and pick kids up.
So I hope everyone is keeping warm today.

Blahness

I'm trying to write every day .. HA! I have to admit I have been irritable lately. October 26 was adoption day for the girls. We took them out to eat. Dec. 20th is Cowens. He really does not understand what that means. He knows he was adopted and thats all. The girls (Destiny) remembers more. Teanna does not remember just what Destiny tells her. Cowen turned 4 on the 12 of Nov.
Today Cowen and I went to Goodwill with Rachel and Meghan her daughter that is Cowen's age. I was determined to buy something today, I found some hot pads that were brand new. Cowen found a Dolphin and that was about it. I did find some photo frames I would like to re-finish but maybe next time Blah!

"FAT THING"

Today was a fat day for me. I am over weight and really need to lose a bunch, But today I was feeling extra..... fluffy (aka bitchy) I wore a scrub top to work that was to tight and it bugged me all day. I walked in front of a mirror and wondered who the hec that fat butt was.

My day died of a heart attack. I am afraid of getting everything he had. So in Jan. My friend Rachel and I are starting our weight loss Thingy. I am getting a membership to the Y. I LOVE to work out but just getting motivated to do it is another thing.

I had to work this weekend and today I went to work on 3 hrs of sleep. Teanna was sick puking most of the night. My poor baby she's 6 and never complains.
So I guess I will take my fat butt to bed.

We made it through Holloween. Then my Dad died on the 4th of Nov. It has been crazy trying to do things for my Mom. They were married for 55 years. My 6yr old took it hard she and my Dad were close. It is hard to explain death to kids. But with Jim losing his parents the past 2 years we think we've done ok.
I loved my Dad, he was old fashion but the best Dad. I have one sister and three brothers. My brother from Alaska made it and tried to help my Mom get her money in order. It just has been crazy. I'll try to write every day.

Green beans for breakfast?????

Tradition is you eat cereal, toast, eggs or what ever???? Some have had steak and eggs. ok if you can eat steak for breakfast or sugary cereal why not green beans??
The thing is not many kids would eat "Green Beans" let alone for breakfast but My kid loves cold green beans out of the can and if he wants to eat them for break fast he will! My husband tried to tell me "You don't eat green beans for breakfast!" Where does it say that?? There is no law or rules we follow by that says "NO GREEN BEANS FOR BREAKFAST" If he chooses that over cereal then it's ok with me!!!1 :P

Today we went to the pumpkin patch. It was a nice day to go and I think every one was thinking the same thing. I will try to post some pictures later.

stress

My kife has been stress full lately. Hurting my back and dealing with behaviors from my 8yr old with attachment disorder. I really want to cut down hours at work but Christmas is coming and I don't want to get behind any bills.
I am taking some pills for my back with Ibuprofen but they don't really work. and I have to go back to work tomorrow. I an kinda goofy so I better not write much I have had to respell a bunch. I will try to write more tomorrow.

Me

I'm married to my high school sweet heart, 3 kids adopted from foster care, 2 dogs and one guinea pig. I work full time and wish I could stay home with my kids. My house is a wreck most times and I spend most days off trying to get it back in order.

My husband and I wasted and I use the cause as you know I am 38 going on 40 :P We wasted 3 or 4 years on trying to get prego and never did. We tried international adoption and financially could not come up with the money.
A family member told us to try foster care. I really was against it but we did thinking I would get my mind off getting PG and then it would happen.

Our first placement were 2 little girls 2 and 3 and 1 month later she turned 4. They are the best thing that ever happened to us. They came to us in July of 04 and was adopted Oct. 06
Our same case worker called us asking us if we wanted to take a little boy 15 months and we did. He was adopted Dec. 07. We went from 0 to 3 and they didn't come with instructions .. LOL
I am also trying to work up a support group/web site with some friends to talk to others with kids that has issues. Both my girls are RAD girls. So behaviors are a daily thing in our house.

I hope to keep up to date with this. I am afraid I will have nothing to say that means anything. Well, Thats all for tonight.

First blog

This is my first entry. I'm not sure on the picture or the colors but it will do for now.
More later.